wordless evening .. ?? :D

ending for 2011

assalamualaikum . :)

last day to enjoy in home . home sweet home . east or west , home is the best .

an experience to share :

before , my intention was : 'nantilah . aku tunjuk . baru kau tahu sape aku .' it was for them who hate me . then , now i realized . i've got what i want . but , it was nothing to them . they don't even care about me . they just love to critic me when they feel so . i realized that i've wasted my time just for them . shame on me . but , alhamdulillah . He opened my eyes . although my intention was seriously wrong , but He still gave me what i want and most important , CHANCE TO CHANGE IT .

now , you have the option to critic me or to realize . i wrote this because i know there are some people that had been bullied mentally like me before . shame on you if still love to critic people .

sahaja aku hidup kerana ALLAH taala .

may 2012 be a brighter year .

farah izzati .

knowledge grows everywhere .

assalamualaikum readers . :)
may you are in the pink of health .

i noticed that i've wrote more post than before . hehe . anyway , may my post bring benefit .

last night , i watched 3 IDIOTS . personally , i agree with ANWAR HADI . 3 IDIOTS is the invention of the decade . do watch it and don't miss the great learning .

knowledge grows everywhere !

i've just blogwalking just now and subhanallah , i got new knowledge and experiences that the other bloggers share . awesome ! subhanallah . they seriously open my eyes . they just know each other online but yet they create GREAT UKHWAH !! keep supporting each other and sharing for good and .. and ..

this is the new world for me . i've owned another blog before but this experience and feeling were totally different . 0o ALLAH , alhamdulillah . alhamdulillah . alhamdulillah .

may i've strength like them . constantly sharing for good . inshaALLAH .

bila kau sedar hidup , mati , dan segalanya hanya untuk ALLAH . bila kau sedar kerjaya sehebat mana pun tak akan bawa kau ke syurga . bila kau sedar wang berjuta tidak boleh membeli tiket ke syurga . bila kau sedar kekasih sehensem mana tak dijamin menjadi teman ke syurga . bila kau sedar ... 

( ya ALLAH , tetapkan kesedaran dihati . teguhkan rasa kehambaan di jiwa )

sahaja aku _____________ kerana ALLAH swt .

hamba kerdil hina dan dhaif ,

farah izzati .

strong .

assalamualaikum readers . :)

i've just read a blog . AKU HIV POSITIF . before i read his blog , i don't know why . it's like some attraction that lead me to it . i've deleted many tabs that i opened but not this blog . i don't know why .

ahh . tengah feeling ni . malas nak ber-english .

saya baca blog dia dan tiba-tiba leleh . ALLAH ! perasaan yang __________ . tak tahu nak cakap macam mana . saya mengadu bila tangan saya luka . saya rasa macam payah nak wudhu' . macam-macam alasan mula timbul . this man really make me reallize . ya ALLAH . speechless . T.T

he even said : syukur YA ALLAH , kau berikan aku HIV .

mula-mula tengok title blog dia , i tought he is a kind-of-nonsense blogger yang suka cakap entah apa-apa . and voila ! totally different . subhanallah . ALLAH , indah aturan KAU .

you never know how strong you are until

 BEING STRONG IS THE ONLY CHOICE YOU HAVE 




pandanglah mereka yang kekurangan baru kau sedar kau terlebih layak untuk bersyukur .

*mula berjinak-jinak dengan blogger medic . may interest occur .

malu aku untuk mengaku kuat . :(

farah izzati .

waiting .

crooked .

wonderful colorful .

assalamualaikum . :)

i don't think we should just have one favorite color . ain't we ?

we may use different colors for different situations . for examples : i prefer pink for my blog , and brown for clothes , and white for watches and sneakers and blue pen for writing and green for my soul . and others .

why waste it with selected favorite color ?



so , i don't think you can conclude that my favorite color is pink when you saw my blog . :)
thus sent me pink watch and pink keychain in a pink box . hehe . anyway , those are sweet and thank you !

*i'm not a one-color-from-head-to-toe girl . :D



life is like a plain paper , you are the artist . color it ! and make it different . :)

will you ?

assalamualaikum , :)

i don't hope for silk to cover me , i'm not waiting for diamonds to prettify me , i'm not asking for a hundreds ringgit makeup , neither a branded handbags , nor sessions in spa for every week

i just need your invaluable love to cover me , and beautiful akhlaq to prettify me , and sincere worship to make me up , and knowledge sharing session every day .

i know , it is always easier to say than to do .

that's why i'm asking you one more thing : your unending support . :)

because those what i want are what i should want .

will you ?

farah izzati .

guilty . :(

assalamualaikum . 

feeling guilty .

i've strayed . far . astaghfirullah . :(

Every time you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost and that you’re so alone

All you see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless you can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Coz Allah is always by your side

Insha’Allah Insha’Allah Insha’Allah

You’ll find your way

Insha’Allah Insha’Allah Insha’Allah

You’ll find your way

Every time you commit one more mistake

You feel you can’t repent

And that it’s way too late

You’re so confuse

Wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Coz Allah is always by your side

Insha’Allah Insha’Allah Insha’Allah

You’ll find your way

Insha’Allah Insha’Allah Insha’Allah

You’ll find your way

Turn to Allah

He’s never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

Oohh Ya Allah

Guide my steps don’t let me go astray

You’re the only one who can show me the way

Show me the way

Show me the way

Show me the way

Insha’Allah Insha’Allah Insha’Allah

We’ll find our way

Insha’Allah Insha’Allah Insha’Allah

We’ll find our way

Insha’Allah Insha’Allah Insha’Allah

You’ll find your way

it's ALLAH we should turn to .

farah izzati .

change .

assalamualaikum . :)

in school , i was placed in the first class and be surrounded by many geniuses . their normal marks during exams were about 95 to 100 . and i wasn't as good as them .

i always proud of them . i tell my mom about them and keep praise them .

my usual words when i see their marks : wow ! tak pelikk lahh . :)

but just now , something pops out in my mind . until when should i just amazed about them ? why don't i make others proud of me ?

yeap . i should change . i'm good but i want the best .

i want my family proud of me . i should stop amaze of them . insyaALLAH . wait n see .

the one who prepare to fly high .

farah izzati .

there's no such wrong in arts . :D

assalamualaikum ! welcome readers . thanks for visiting , :) last night , i was drawing some picture with my lil sis . and i enjoy it . so , these are the selected draws . ^^

this is not my drawing okei . hehe .

insyirah draws about spongebob right away after she watched it .

it shows that spongebob is jumping to chase patrick .

and the colurful stuffs with spots on it were jelly fish .

so , currently spongebob and patrick are at jellyfish field .

and this is mine . ^^

okay , i admit that i am not so creative . 

the words on it :

i want to reach the highest cloud

and touch the colourful rainbow ,

so now i am preparing my wing . :)

i draw this for the sake of SPM .

so good luck for me ! :)

yang mimpi sampai ke syurga ,

farah izzati .

crazy .

assalamualaikum . :)

last night , i had a dream . where i met someone that i miss the most . i shouldn't .

i type an emel , then i deleted it . i didn't send it .

i stalk the fb . often .

i stalk the blog too . often .

i don't know . am i wrong ?

i read my senior blog . kak rasyidah  . it was about uzlah .

i know what is my problem . maybe i don't have so much thing to do . i was too relax .
this illness will stop soon . i know . the school is going to be open in a week . may i don't have time to think about it . may i'll forget everything . insyaALLAH , i will . i hope it will not disturb me in study , doing my homework and my responsibility towards my school .


*i actually often dream about the same thing  . it make me sick . :(



enough for now . i haven't perform my zuhur prayer yet .

* i want to be a SOLEHAH . i want . i want .
something is wrong somewhere . and i lost my temper . astaghfirullah . T.T

yang berhati parah ,
farah izzati .

i was stunned . :(

assalamualaikum readers . once again , thank you for spending your time to visit my page .

today , i would like to share with you about something that make me stunned and sometimes feel like depressed . i shouldn't . T.T

i was viewing my friends' status as appeared in facebook's home . and suddenly , i saw this :

"awak....laen kali bile kuar ngan sayer jgn pkai slipar jpun yerr...bkn ape...slipar 2 xsesuai sgt lr ngn awk...laen kli jgn buad lg yerr?...#hopefully#

#senyumxtakperlukataapa-apa" -anonymous 

and it made me shout : oh , what ?? and gave me the idea to make a status :

HIKAYAT GIRL and BOY

girl : asal pakai baju besar gedabak-dabak ni ? malu laa . burukk . T.T jalan jauh2 siket .

boy : asal pakai baju kecik ketat gelemat ni ? tak malu ke ? pergi nyorok2 nuh . T.T

*biar buruk kat mata manusia . jangan buruk kat mata ALLAH . muslim , kalo ada jumpa girl macam tu , tak payah buat kawan laa. T.T

i just feel like dissappointed as she's a friend from my school . an ISLAMIC school . then , i tried to think . maybe she's talking about a girl . or a boy ?

let us make two conclusion ;

1 . if she's talking about a girl , then she's very good as she had the gut to admonish her friend that show her aurat that is strictly banned in ISLAM . then , BRAVO FOR HER .

2 . if she's talking about a boy , then that's not very good . firstly , because she went out with a stranger ( not her mahram ) . secondly , as she damned her friend that wearing a pair of selipar jepun . very unwise ! she damned about the boy's fashion while she's not actually covering her aurat properly .

i'm not punishing the girl . i don't even know the real story . i just saw her status . let us just make it as a lesson . FOR US ! what ever the real story is , may this sharing beneficial .  

yang dah lenguh jari ,

farah izzati .

look alike . *aww.blushing . HAHA

assalamualaikum viewers . thank you for visiting my page . i'm sorry , there's nothing here . :)

good morning . alhamdulillah . have you perform your subuh prayer ? done reciting alma'thurat . waaa . good ! alhamdulillah . now , join my meroyan . :D

my father and brother said , i look alike NURUL SYUHADA NURUL AIN .

my mother said i look alike FAUZIAH GHOUS

*i don't like this fauziah . -.-'

                                                   my friends said i look alike MARIA ELENA

my senior said i look alike LISA SURIHANI

my neighbour said i look alike PRETTY ZINTA . *is it should be PREITY ? i don't know .

haha . aww . malu lah . haaaaaa . pffftt . i am not that over beauty .

anyway . i said , 'oooouhh .jauhnya nak relate pun'

i got their point . maybe they equate our oval-faced . maybe .

i do look alike my UMI and ABAH and SISTERS . :)

yang meroyan dan tak perlu dilayan,

farah izzati .

*you are not vomiting right ? haha .

i'm a learner . :)

assalamualaikum wbt . :)
readers . ( ade ker ? ) :P
alhamdulillah , i still have the chance to write here after waiting for an hour for the loading . T.T aduhai .
huhu . ALHAMDULILLAH .

i was inspired by aina kamil , ( she's a headgirl you know! i'm proud ^^ ) to write in ENGLISH .
you can visit her blog . she's cool right ? it's simple but interesting . i like ! i write english for a reason , which is i'm not so good in english . i can guess that you already know even if i don't tell you . hehe .

i don't know much about english . my grammar , vocabulary , and others are so broken . i mean it . i'm ashamed of my other friends . so , here i go . writing what ever i want here so that i can become familiar with this language . it is not irritating you , right ? alhamdulillah . :D

naahhh . enough writing about my weakness . it's not good . right ? my best friend , farah wadhihah always remind me about this as i kept complain about my degradation . she say :

' if you keep think negatively about you , then there will be no one else will think positively about you . appreciate yourself ! stop talking bad about you . be confident! '

woaaa . she's cool right ?? i love her . don't be jealous if you don't have farah wadhihah as a friend .
 *i keep tell others . :D

well , she's right . whereas ISLAM also teach us not to talk about others badness . especially , the badness of ourself .

don't you notice ? the friends around me are all cool ! they advice me when i'm wrong . they support me when i need . i love them . i mean it . i love them . :)

jealous of me ? find yours in BULATAN GUMBIRA ! :)

enough for now . assalamualaikum .

haiyaa . my strength is carried away by someone . T.T

and i feel dumb .

may ALLAH bless .

farah izzati .

tak payah baca .

ceng..ceng..

assalamualaikum wbt . :)

selamat pagi . start your day with something sweet and end it with something sweeter . :)
pagi ni , saya nak tulis untuk diri saya je . boleh ?

bila saya ada masalah , saya tak suka bercerita pada manusia . saya suka menulis . walaupun manusia masih boleh membaca tulisan saya , lantaklah . instead of others advice , i prefer to motivate myself . no comment lahh kan , dah memang camtu . nak buat camne .. :)

i HAD a friend .
yang saya tak faham kenapa saya boleh percayakan dia .
yang saya tak faham kenapa saya boleh suka cara dia .
yang saya tak faham kenapa saya boleh rindukan dia .
yang saya tak faham apa yang membezakan dia dengan orang lain .
yang saya tak faham kenapa dia boleh terdetik untuk menjadikan saya kawan .
yang saya tak faham macammana dia boleh sabar dengan saya .
yang saya tak faham kenapa dia boleh hargai saya sedang orang lain benci saya .
dan lain-lain lagi .

hmm . hargai kawan anda ! hargai . hargai . hargai .

selamat bermujahadah . selamat menempuh ujian !!
berlagak kuat itu memang kuat . :D

yang lapar ,

farah izzati . 

lagha yang lara.

tolak segala yang lara . emm . maksud saya lagha . :D

bloody holiday .

assalamualaikum.

aiwah . title tu gaya sarcastic dramatik je.. haa.. taklah.ni bukan tajuk english essay .

sepanjang cuti sebulan , dengan jayanya saya berjaya mewujudkan 4 parut yang moga-moga tak kekal . yang paling sarkastik dan memorable adalah yang latest . T.T .

 starting dengan luka melecur kena iron . *kesan melecur paling besar seumur hidup sepanjang 16 tahun ni .
lepas tu luka kat dua-dua belah kaki . kaki kiri parah sikit . yang ni sebab main kejar-kejar dengan afiq . haha . padan la muka , kan ?
dan latest , pinggan pecah .

alkisah , masa tu nak makan nasik . ambik pinggan and lap . lepas tu apa jadi entah tetiba pecah . masa tu kelu terkedu tak tahu nak buat apa . darah dah meleleh menitik-nitik dah . oh! pening nak pitam masa tu . tertengok sekali kat tangan lepas tu tobat taknak tengok dah . havoc je seisi rumah pergi 'lawat' dekat dapur tu . masa tu , saya dah memang tak larat nak berdiri , terus duduk . ingatkan nak kena marah . hehe . tak de orang marah pun .

maka , tak jadilah makan . pergi baring terus takut jatuh tengah2 jalan kan malu je kena angkat .

disebabkan kemalangan yang tak seberapa malang tu , nak makan pun umi yang tolong bubuhkan nasik . lauk pun umi carik2 kan . umi lah yang ikat rambut . tolong masa nak ambik air sembahyang . gaya nazak je , kan ? hee . even sekarang pun typing using thumbnail . huu . nazak2 .

yang penting , baru saya faham perasaan mereka-mereka yang kurang mampu . memang sedih . dahlaa tangan kanan . antara anggota penting kot .

kafarah dosa . mungkin . tak pernah-pernah accident menimpa bertimpa-timpa . luka dulu baru nak pulih dah dapat luka baru . mungkin sebab banyak dosa cuti ni kot . moga segala sakit tu jadi kafarah dosa-dosaku . redha je lahh . :)

biar luka kulit . jangan luka hati .

farah izzati

new .

diari maya ?