katanya mahu jadi diri sendiri

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim :) :)

katanya mahu menjadi diri sendiri.
tapi gimana kalau di saat ini aku belum menemukannya?
ya. diri aku.

sometimes there will be people who hates you for being yourselves
and they're expecting you to be the way they wanted you to be
and.. and..
it's confusing you
are you seriously bad, not really good, and bothersome
or its them who's negative and can't accept me the way I am

should I change?
and follow their life code

it's not that i'm being weak or what
you've to understand that I can't constantly defend myself
as I am no more clear if I'm right or wrong

what if I'm wrong
and what if I'm right?
what should I do?
where should I start?

let me tell you, I miss the serenity
the moment when I slave myself just for ALLAH
not human's perception.
:'(

where should I start?